100 gaviotas dónde irán

Almost June and I can't believe yet how fast it went...

It seems to be yesterday when we celebrated Christmas and today the countdown on the phone says there are less than 30 days left. Yes, one month!! My host mum said this was kind of a "bittersweet" feeling, and I think that's the perfect word. I'm happy and excited to meet my friends and family again, after 10 months using skype and facetime to talk to them. I can't wait to see my cat, sleep in my bed and have lunch at my grandmas. But on the other hand, I'm going to miss this sooo much... taking the school bus to go to class, playing with the dogs at home, or going kayaking in the lake (just to mention a few things). 

What's going to happen when i finally arrive home? It is going to be the same? Is the people going to be same? The same places to hang out or the same teachers I used to have?

Believe it or not, but that scares me the most. I'm going to feel like an outsider in my own place... Being away for so long has made me to see how my environment has changed. Sounds stupid and a little bit crazy, but that's how I feel. 

I used to talk to my friends almost every day and they have told me a lot of things about them, and sometimes those things made me laugh or scared me... (like, what the fuck is going on with you guys?). We are not kids anymore and this summer is going to be a GOOD summer, can't wait for it! But at the same time, there are going to be some awkward moments where I will not know how to react or say. 

What about when the summer ends? I'll be back to school and what? Is it going to be as it used to be?

Of course not. Here in Canada school is, most of the time, much more easier. I don't know if "easier" is the best word, but I haven't worked as much as I used to work in Spain. I used to spend the whoooole afternoon studying for my tests and getting ready for projects and exams. Here, it is pretty different, I do a lot of things in class but we don't have as much homework or tests. The difference may be than in Spain teachers and students get more focused in theory parts, which have to be shown in the tests. It doesn't work like this here, where they are more focused in working in class, more practice than theory. However, I have forgotten my studies techniques and I wouldn't be able to spend the night studying, it is impossible for me right now.

What I'm sure I'm going to do this summer is that I'm going to study everything I haven't studied in one year, and I'm going to hang out and party as much as I haven't in one year. As I said, I'm not a kid any more, and I can say that this year abroad has made much more responsible and mature, so I'm able enough to know how to behave, both studying and partying. 

I can feel how all the Spanadians are feeling and I can't guess what's going to happen once we get home. What I'm pretty sure about is that I'm going to enjoy my friends and family as much as I haven't in these months !!